I am lonely, yet not everybody will do. I don’t know why, some people fill the gaps and others emphasize my loneliness. In reality those who satisfy me are those who simply allow me to live with my ”idea of them.

Why don't I let anybody do? Why do some emphasize it and others just fill gaps? There's only hollow laughter around and shallow eyes.
Thinking of not finding someone whose idea I can live with is making me want to drown.