4/25/12
She stands beside me, stands away,
the vague indifference
of her dreams. Dreaming, to go on,
and go on there, like animals fleeing
the rise of the earth. But standing
intangible, my lust a worked anger
a sweating close covering, for the crudely salty soul.
Then back off, and where you go? Box of words
and pictures. Steel balloons tied to our mouths.
The room fills up, and the house. Street tilts.
City slides, and buildings slide into the river.
What is there left, to destroy? That is not close,
or closer. Leaning away in the angle of language.
Pumping and pumping, all our eyes criss cross
and flash. It is the lovers pulling down empty structures.
They wait and touch and watch their dreams
eat the morning.
Every single night
I endure the flight
of little wings of white-flamed
Butterflies in my brain
These ideas of mine
Percolate the mind
Trickle down the spine
Swarm the belly, swelling to a blaze
Like a second skeleton
Trying to fit beneath the skin
I can’t fit the feelings in
Every single night’s alright with my brain
What’d I say to her
What’d I say it to her
What does she think of me
That i’m not what I ought to be
That i’m what I try not to be
It’s got to be somebody else’s fault
I can’t get caught
If what I am is what I am, cause I does what I doesThen brother, get back, cause my breast’s gonna bust open
The rib is the shell and the heart is the yolk yoke and
I just made a meal for us both to choke on
Every single night’s a fight with my brain
I just want to feel everything
So i’m gonna try to be still now
Gonna renounce the mill a little while and
If we had a double-king-sized bed
We could move in it and i’d soon forget
That what I am is what I am cause I does what I does
And maybe i’d relax, let my breast shot bust open
My heart’s made of parts of all that surround me
And that’s why the devil just can’t get around me
Every single night’s alright, every single night’s a fight
And every single fight’s alright with my brain
I just want to feel everything
I just want to feel everything
I just want to feel everything
I just want to feel everything
4/3/12
If I wait to fall in love with someone, I may never experience love; that's why I've decided to fall in love with the idea of love, even if it sounds lonesome as fuck, I do not care about it. It probably won't disappoint as much as someone I might not even love but for whose kisses I've longed for so long.
So many love stories I'd love to live in to later realize I'm not even in the right lane.
I want Anaïs Nin and Henry Miller, I want Zelda and Scott Fitzgerald.
I want to make up russian novels whenever I gaze upon my lover's eyes.
I want Sylvia Plath's heartache over Ted Hughes and I want someone to be tormented by heartache the same way I am.
I long for subtle touches and never-ending embraces, I want long breaks of dawn and twilights, I want moon eclipses and heartbreak wishes.
I want Franny Brawne and John Keat's devotion,
I want Jaime Sabines and Josefa Rodríguez,
Retrieving from love sounds like a better path instead of ricocheting through Nabokov's lusted ways in which I'm horribly and tremendously acquainted.
Hoping for love is like waiting for oceans to not carry knowledge of thousands of worlds.
I want to make up russian novels whenever I gaze upon my lover's eyes.
I want Sylvia Plath's heartache over Ted Hughes and I want someone to be tormented by heartache the same way I am.
I long for subtle touches and never-ending embraces, I want long breaks of dawn and twilights, I want moon eclipses and heartbreak wishes.
I want Franny Brawne and John Keat's devotion,
I want Jaime Sabines and Josefa Rodríguez,
Retrieving from love sounds like a better path instead of ricocheting through Nabokov's lusted ways in which I'm horribly and tremendously acquainted.
Hoping for love is like waiting for oceans to not carry knowledge of thousands of worlds.
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